Monthly Archives: November 2008


myself… 1

Sometimes you don’t know what you are searching for…if you say its an excuse to do nothing, I am ready to accept…coz I know I would be somewhere in the deep thinking which you can’t get in at the moment…I am not making any excuse. This is a fact and you have to ask yourself…If that could be money with a great designation you wished, you are at that point…why not? I am in confusion…reason being, you get all what you want…and if you get that, you become more hungry…and more and more…there is no end…there is no limit…human nature…Have you feel that whatever you wish to be…you got it and post that…you wish more and more… And after every next level you achieved…insecurity raises high and high…you have more bills to pay…you have more instalments…more EMIs…or whatever…your near and dear ones need more from you and to get that, you have to do a lot more…

When you started with few bucks…you were in the seventh sky…now at present you are at the multiplication of that with 5 or 6 or 7 or even 9…and still there is a feeling inside that “u r nothing, u r nowhere”…what’s the deal? Where is the promise you made to yourself that you will do this, you will do that and all gone? You gone to US, UK..Wherever…you made money…you made friends…but where are you? Are you there where you wished to be? Are you doing what you wanted to be? So what you made out of it? You wanted not to be payable to someone…but a balance sheet is waiting there on your name with bank…waiting for your next appraisal…huge expectation of near n dear ones…waiting there to get fulfil…

So where are you? You are lost somewhere…somewhere in this race…somewhere in this race to be superior…somewhere in this race to be someone…to handle people…can you handle yourself in a way you always wished to be?? You can’t…so how you can handle other people? How you can be happy just by a quote “SIR” if someone said this to you? How you can be happy not to be yourself by saying yes n yes to all your superiors when you are not happy by yourself…??

Okay…here goes my side…

Have you ever gone through the life of anyone he who wanted to be himself and succeed? No…? Yes…? Whatever…

I have gone through..but don’t want any life like that…as like you don’t want any life like that…

Ghalib…? Sindbaad…? Arastu…? Lao Tse…? Heard of them? No..? Go Google…

Anywayz…Whoever they were…whatever they did…they were themselves…They didn’t changed anything inside them…for at least this world…They did they wanted to do…and they survived their life…they were not rich..they were hardly capable to arrange the things for their survival…but they did whatever they wanted…that was the liberty..that was their own freedom…that was in between them…Kings of themselves…which is more important rather than king of all by winning anyone else…I mean you can be funny…you can make other’s happy by jokes…but deep inside….you know what is going on…what you are doing..only you can know…but they were what they wanted to be…and everyone around them was a part of that…

Sorry..I am not a follower…I don’t follow anyone…but at least can appreciate…

They were not famous at their time…because of the reason they didn’t wanted to be…but we….we want to be famous…we want that people should know us…at present…not in the future…not saying that this is wrong…just trying to accept that their approach was right…

I am done with my frustration…thanks for reading and have a good tomorrow ahead…and yes please… don’t forget to smile today, tomorrow may be worst… 🙂